Fergie speaks from time to time about her struggle with addictive behaviors, including an addiction to drugs that nearly derailed her personal and professional life before she linked up with the Black Eyed Peas. Now the 42-year-old pop star has opened up about that difficult time once again in a new interview in which she describes one of the worst hallucinations she ever encountered under the influence. Evidently, Fergie had an overwhelming feeling of impending doom and paranoia destroying her mind because she was using Crystal Meth. She explained,
At my lowest point, I was [suffering from] chemically induced psychosis and dementia. I was hallucinating on a daily basis. It took a year after getting off that drug for the chemicals in my brain to settle so that I stopped seeing things. I'd just be sitting there, seeing a random bee or bunny.
Fergie told iNews how she once thought there was a vast conspiracy by organizations out to get her. The "Big Girls Don't Cry" singer said she thought the CIA and FBI were tracking her. She went on to talk about how she once got asked to leave a church because she flipped out, ran down the aisle, and bolted out the front doors to make sure a SWAT team was not waiting outside for her. This particular delusion even included a moment when Fergie felt convinced the church, where she was trying to find refuge contained infrared cameras installed to track her whereabouts.
When Fergie went running through the church, she told herself that if there was a SWAT team parked outside and she was right, then it would confirm her deepest fears. But if not, everything she was fearing was coming from the drugs. Of course, the latter was the truth, and there was no SWAT team out to get her. The CIA and FBI were not keeping tabs on her; the church did not have infrared cameras tracking her moves. It all the result of the drugs.
Fergie went on to say that using drugs was "a hell of a lot of fun until it wasn't," which essentially sums up what a lot of former addicts report about their most difficult periods of drug abuse or alcohol addiction. Now Fergie says she feels gratitude for that awful time in her life because, as she indicates in the interview, it remains a time that she can reflect on and point to as an example of how not to live. She even said it brought her to a place where she recognized her "hope for something better" in life. How amazing is that?
What got Fergie on the subject of her lowest point in the first place was a moment in the interview when she brought out candy from her purse and explained how it was her current vice. In other words, the singer has long since kicked her drug habits, and now her world has entirely improved. It is always heartening to hear celebrities who have overcome addiction talk this way. Fergie has an enormous platform, so it is excellent when she speaks out about her painful experiences with addictions. In doing so, she might inspire hope in people who struggle the same way.