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Nick Cordero’s devoted wife Amanda Kloots got a little more vulnerable than usual here recently, sharing that she totally broke down as her husband reached a shocking 90 days in the hospital. Back in April, Cordero’s condition first made headlines as he fought for his life amid contracting COVID-19. Throughout it all, Kloots has kept fans updated about his condition. Now, she is sharing that her feelings took a temporary nosedive.

Taking to her Instagram Stories, Amanda Kloots shared that she completely let herself go in a moment of anguish, as her family life has been turned upside down for three months now. The past 90 days have been filled with a lot of downs, and only some ups, with Nick Cordero trying to combat the aftermath of the coronavirus and other health issues. Explaining her emotional state, Kloots said:

I broke big time today; at home, at the hospital in front of doctors and while sitting next to Nick. I couldn't keep it together. . . . I got mad today, too. I got mad at God. I'm praying and I have people all over the world praying. I said to my mom and dad, 'Why can't He throw us a bone? I'm sorry, but I'm mad at him right now.' I felt bad right after my outburst, but it needed to come out.

Who could possibly fault Amanda Kloots for this? Not this writer. Throughout everything that her husband has endured, Kloots has remained steadfast in hoping and praying for his recovery, usually with the additional goodwill of friends and fans. All the while, Kloots has been raising her and Cordero’s young son, Elvis, which adds more stress to an already hectic situation. Kloots’ focus in her posts is usually centered on her husband, so it is nice to hear her reflect on what she is going through, even if it's not the most optimistic update.

It is personally unimaginable. Amanda Kloots has had to report on the bad and the good/more hopeful news the past few months. While Kloots acknowledges that she had a few moments where her frustration was purely expressed, which was hopefully as cathartic as possible. Kloots has been trying to keep it together, and here's what she said about her plan moving forward:

So how do you overcome it and stay positive? I acknowledge the day I had. It's OK. It's OK to cry, to get mad and say it's not fair. I will keep my faith and keep asking for miracles. I will put my armor back on and walk taller tomorrow. I will do the best I can do and make myself as big as I can. I broke today. I’ll be back tomorrow.

Nick Cordero and his family have been through different versions of hell in the past few months. At one point, he was put into a medically-induced coma, which took far longer than usual for him to wake up from. Early on in that process, his leg was amputated, and a pacemaker was inserted into his heart, with damage to his lungs leading to the possibility that he would have to undergo a lung transplant.

Thankfully, Cordero woke up from the coma in May, and has steadily shown signs of improvement. Throughout it all, Amanda Kloots has remained a devoted cheerleader for her husband, whom it is clear she adores. After months spent physically away from her husband, Kloots finally got to visit him in June, and promptly shared an update at the time, saying he was “more alert.”

Fast forward a bit, and Kloots is experiencing understandable frustration over her husband's health and its effect on their family. In all of the unknown, the good news is that Nick Cordero is no longer COVID-19 positive. Unfortunately, it's clear that the coronavirus can lead to far more permanent problems over time.

After some “rocky” times, it makes total sense for Amanda Kloots to be feeling upset. Nick Cordero has now spent three months in the hospital while struggling with the coronavirus. Here is hoping that the miracle Amanda Kloots is hoping for can happen, and soon enough for his family to be able to safely take him home from the hospital.

To see the actor in action, you can watch Nick Cordero’s performance as Victor Lugo on Blue Bloods. Previous seasons of the crime procedural are now streaming it on CBS All Access. While you wait for the series’ eleventh season to arrive, be sure to anticipate this summer’s premieres.

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